When Coban suggested another photo walk earlier this week, I felt a little panicky. What if we run out of colors? ROYGBIV is only so long, and we are already three colors in. I suggested we go downtown instead.

As you might have guessed, it didn’t have the same uplifting effect as going around photographing beautiful spring flowers. Our favorite restaurant is closed (RIP Tailpipes), and there are many new “For Rent” signs in the windows.

I’m so impressed with people who stick their necks out and open businesses in this country, generally; they’re wiling to take a risk that I can’t fathom. No health insurance? No guaranteed income? As a single mom, I just can’t.

But really, let’s be honest. I went to law school for a reason. I’m not exactly the most risk tolerant girl you’ve ever met. Yet even those who are probably aren’t prepared for something like this. NPR says that 25% of small businesses will go out of business after 30 days of this, and 50% will close after 90 days. The numbers are so grim.

And then last night our friends came by with handmade signs and serenaded us with accordion music. They did a whirlwind tour across town, stopping at multiple houses, so their boys could see all the friends they’ve missed these last few weeks.

These two events perfectly capture the emotional rollercoaster that is social distancing amid a pandemic. One minute I’m enjoying my alone time and the next I’m freaking out. It was nice to end the week on a high note.